Sunny Days and Sunny Feelings
Yay, Vancouver has been so nice! It has been amazing weather and God has been so awesome these couple weeks. I had a minor freak out during reading week. I really haven't been focusing on school and been really awful about time management...I really need to be more focused...it's hard during the last year, grr. But God, under His amazing grace helped me get through a very stressful week. Things are picking up slowly for Stint and I am just so amazed by how much God has been teaching me. Especially in digging in to His Word. I realize that I read so much without taking it in. Now I am rereading and focusing on the first chapters of Isaiah that I seemed to skim over before and really am learning so much from it now. I keep praying as I read and asking "What does this say about God's character and plan...?" What a difference. I am ashamed of how little I know about scripture. It's time to change. This weekend I am also stepping into a new ministry area that I'm excited about....Sunday school @ Church! Anyways, I should go. Eeek, gottta go pick up my sis from Youth Group. Yeah, Youth Group!, yay God for working in her life. Better update later.
Cough cough cough
Ick, I am sick and I really need rest...but when? It feels that I pretty much am constantly going going going sometime. I know I know, I complain about this all the time and I muct sound really whiny. Business is a choice, and I choose to be busy. I choose to take things on and I love it. But when I really need some down time its hard to say no. But anyways, ok, no more whininess.
So, my support raising for Stint has began and I am SO grateful to Jackie for being such an encouragement the other day. She helped me more with my game plan and is going to be my support buddy...and I hers, as she is support raising for joining Crusade staff. SOOOO greatly appreciated. I'm excited once again to know God will bring in the finances I need, cuz ALL things in heaven and earth belong to Him.
I went to Alpha again tonight with my mom and sister. It is so exciting to see so many people seeking and searching for answers. In the discussion, I got a glimpse more of where my mom is at. She is defintely on a journey....Though I know we all are, I don't always see that with her. Sometimes God seems to work so slow that it scares me. Sometimes I just hurt so bad for her, I just want her to know so badly how much God loves her and recognize the hole she has without Him. But she makes it very very clear that, above all, she fears being pushed, so discernment is key. Baby steps. I'm so happy that she is opening up though.
One more thing just before I leave, just in case I don't write before I leave for Cru retreat this weekend....my friend Lindsay is getting baptised!!! Linds, I know you read this and I want to say congrats. I'm excited for you and, well, yeah, just wanted to say that this is awesome.
I can't think straight anymore. Tylenol Cold is playing with my mind and making me sleepy. Hopeflly I didnt mak two manie spelling mistacks.
EEK
Oh eek. Trust trust trust. And so, fundraising for my upcoming Missions trip to East Asia begins. God is already reminding me to rely on Him to calm my heart, my fears, my doubts. Am I doing the right thing? Am I making the right decision? Emotional rollercoaster.
