my insecurity...getting the best of me
Ah. Today I love: not very much. Have to search my brain here. Ok. Chapters. Jane Austen. The colour brown (my new boots and my new scarf). +strand RNA viruses just cuz they are easier than the others to learn. Indian food. My haircut. My handicapped rabbit (he's so cute). And God, of course. Today I do not love: a lot of things. The amount of crap I ate all weekend. My brilliant procrastinating skills. My inability to be emotional when I want to be and inability to control it when I don't. Needless nudity in movies. Not being able to sleep in every day. Thinking about travelling on crowded transit in the rain. Money and what it does to people. And I especially don't love my desperate need for acceptance and reassurance from other people (notice me! compliment me! talk to me! care about me! am i pretty? am i smart? am i funny? am i loved?). It is not until I go to new places where there are new people and I really don't know anyone on a decent level but hey know eachother and then BOOM! I am aware how insecure I am. So pitiful.
posted by SarHa @ 11:03 PM
7 Comments:
we're all insecure sarah. very few people are comfortable in a room full of strangers.
now think if you didn't understand your true value, as a child of the king, how much more insecure would u be? situations like these help me understand what's so great about freedom in Christ.
i concur with your friend tim :) he said everything i was going to say, so i bid thee adieu, but first, a proclamation :
i miss you oex roomie!! i got your card...so cute :)
i concur with your friend tim :) he said everything i was going to say, so i bid thee adieu, but first, a proclamation :
i miss you oex roomie!! i got your card...so cute :)
oops. sorrie for posting that twice! stupid blogger. fooled me!!!!
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oh Sarah...
I KNOW EXACTLY HOW YOU FEEL....
that was me at crusade..all of last year...and at the beginning of this year.
Thanks guys. I totally know where my worth comes from and how precious I am as a child of God. Sometimes my humanity just gets the best of me. And sometimes it is straight up pride....I want to be the center of attention and when I am not I get insecure. It is good though because it reminds me how much I still have to give over to Him daily and keeps me reliant on the One who loves me.
well hey :) I actually was browsing through msn and saw you live in surrey and are christian ;)
well, there's NO contact info so I thought I'd put my msn here so you CAN message me if you want: dnathe@shaw.ca
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