Ramblings of a Restless, Wandering Girl

The End is in Sight

Today it hit me.....this year will be the last chapter in the most significant portion so far in my life. And after the summer passing away so rapidly, I fear this year will also pass much faster than I could ever imagine. Today I helped first years move in to their residences. I wondered what their time at UBC would bring for them......when they reflect on their undergrad years would they focus on the joys of studying their asses off, the partying, the freedom of getting older, the friends they made.....or would it go deeper? What would these years do for them spiritually? Do they already know God? Or does He ever even cross their minds? Are they about to embark on a jouney that is bound to change the way each day of their lives is lived in the future?

When I came to UBC I was so lost. My friends were all on other campuses. I wasn't starting out so hot academically. I was questioning my future and sickened with worry about who I was and who I would end up being. In the midst of over thirty thousand students I was feeling more alone than I ever had before. I was self consumed and guilt ridden. Who knew that just around the corner was the defining moment in my life when my blind eyes opened and I found out who Jesus was. And in this moment, the chains that had bound me for the first nineteen years of my life were broken.

University has been more about my relationship with God than anything else. I love learning. I will admit I am a nerd. And I love the friends I have made here....in classes and with Campus Crusade. But discovering God takes the cake when it comes to the highlight of my UBC experience. I think this is true for many Christians, even those who have grown up in the Church. When we venture out of the confounds of high school and into the so called "real world" we are faced with deep and meaningful life questions. You discover who you are when you don't have the friends you have surrounded yourself with for so many years around you.

I am going to miss school at UBC. I love it there and it is a part of me. I can't help but feel pride in my school....I love the view and the trees and the squirrels and the clock tower and the SUB and sleeping in the library and Storm the Wall and sleeping on the floor of friends in res and Longboat and bubble tea and praying at the flagpole and the CRU office which feels like home and running into friends and learning something new and amazing in class about how life works and listening to the piano in the conversation pit and even the pit....

I don't know what the next few years of my life will look like. That scares me. I t even hurts to admit it. I am such a planner....but my plans are open now. I was told that He should be the author, not editor of my life. So be it. What I do know is that endings bring new beginnings. Amen.

posted by SarHa @ 1:00 AM