Wallowing in my own sorrow
| Do you ever get in those moods where you just hate everything and everyone? Where people all seem really stupid and annoying for no reason? Where you just look at your life and think "ugh"? Then it gets even worse because people try to be nice. I just want to hide in my bed and sleep and listen to sad songs right now. But instead I await Greek food and vent here, hoping to let some of this frusturation out. Unfortunately I must be somewhat social in a few moments. Why do I make things more stressful then they are? Why do I care so much about others opinions? Why do I not learn from my mistakes? Why am I not satisfied right now? Why do I cloud up my priorities? I want to be somewhere else right now, doing something exciting and amazing. Oh Father, snap me outta this, before I snap at another well-meaning person. Grr. Yeah yeah yeah, I need some devo........been so neglectful. Awe, I miss my roomie and shells and roose and bah-roo-lynn and chinglish speaking jenny and the guys ("very handsome") and emmanuel. Thats not even my reason for being sad either. I just feel like wallowing. Is that even how you spell wallowing? I miss Jenn and Julie and Jenna too. My room feels dirty and disorganized. I feel like I have no time to myself. The kennels at the Chilliwack spca are so sad and small. Those poor doggies. Why are we such a selfish and neglectful species? Why do we treat animals so poorly.....to be used for our benefit and disposal? Why are people so stupid? How can people be so cruel? There we go in circles...back to being angry at the human race. I know the answers to my questions for the most part. I wish I could change the world. I can go......I can tell them.......but I can't change hearts....that's not my job. I end this more frusturated then when I started. |
posted by SarHa @ 8:28 PM
4 Comments:
Hey Sar...just read ur blog...sorry u had to socialize with me...and sorry i was venting while u were in need to vent...hmm, explains why u were kinda not there and i just used u being sick as an excuse...
Hugz...u told me i should make time for devo, i hope u would too cuz u're my inspiration :) we go through the ups and downs of life and i know you wanna do so much but some things are beyond us....anyhoo, u know i'm always here for ya begs! have fun driving the spca van with the human siren and amber lights :) i totally understand how u're feeling, chin up hun and get some rest for now. thanks for chillin with me eventhough u probably didn't want to. I luv ya lots...u're an amazing friend/lil sis! nite hun. > I am so here for u bunny hopper <
awww, bella. i miss you too.
i hear ya sarah! makes me feel special that you miss me. =) miss ya too. ;D
happy belated birthday.
our church is sending people out to other churches to check out their worship services and bring back ideas. and i signed up to visit your new church the first week of september. but hopefully i'll see u before then.
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