Wow, there went October
I can't believe that October is almost over. It has been such a crazy few weeks. I have one more midterm tomorrow, then a short lab report for Fri and I am actually a bit more slowed down after this, which is amazing. It has been some of the busiest weeks of my life, but it has been okay, thank God. There really hasn't been anything exciting happening in my life to tell, nor am I in a very reflective mood right now. I have pretty much been a nerd and have been studying straight for the last few weeks.Oh wait a minute, I went to a baby shower on Sunday for a friend from high school. It was so strange to see my high school friends. We have all gone our separate ways and as a group, are so far apart but there is so much that I think will always hold us together. I miss them. But anyways, I can't believe she is pregnent. It is crazy. It's a (relatively) happy pregnancy, she's not married but has been together with the guy for a long time and they seem prepared, but it is strange to have a closer friend pregnent. People I grew up with are growing up....and I guess that means so am I. I feel like such a kid in so many ways still.
Oh yeah, once again I have changed my mind. I am not applying to vet school this year.....I was talking to Lori and she was saying how she had walked around the Law building and couldn't picture herself there. I tried picturing myself at vet school. I knew my heart wouldn't be in it and I would regret taking a year off. Vet school will always be there. And my getting in doesn't have anything to do with me anymore. I have done what I hvae had to do at school and experience-wise. Once the application is off...my part is done. It is not even up to the people in charge of admsisions whether I get in or not. It will all be up to God. And if He wants me there (which I think He does) He will be the one to get me in. I'm playing this a year at a time. If I decide to take one more year off for applying to Stint, then I am fine with that. I hate the feeling that my life is some sort of time line and I have to keep checking things off and giving myself yearly deadlines (grad by this time, travel here, vet school here, marry here (maybe?), kids here (maybe?)etc etc). It is liberating to let that pressure go. I feel a sense a freedom. This next year I have off will be amazing and I really really need to do it.
posted by SarHa @ 10:12 PM
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